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Hi, guys... I'm sorry for not putting up anything up yet and I won't anytime soon, sadly enough. This month has been throwing things at me (like most months this year) and I'm going to list them for you.  I barely have a break, and when I do it about 2 hours of fun then sleep which doesn't do enough for me to have a creative mind. And I feel guilty, so guilty but I can't do anything about it at the moment and I wish I could, just school and real life. And things do seem to like hurting me a lot lately, this month and before and they burn deeply.  It hard to say anything to my family and friends for good reason that will be in this said 'list'.

So here I go, the list:

Home:

Mum- she been quiet ill and only being me and my dad to help her, dad with working and me helping around house as much as I can for her to rest that bit more.

Dad- he been depressed quiet a lot this year and before, so I can't say anything about how I really feel without making him feel worse, like my mum it make things worse. Things don't go that great.

Grandparents- been quiet distance, barely talk to us when my uncle around them and Nan turns cold towards us. They rarely there, and I can't say anything to them like I used too. So, the person who listen to me and cared is gone from my world , my nan would listen to me, she understood me the most out of all my family, she didn't call me 'weird' just a plain simple 'chatter-box' and I miss that deeply , the truth is I hate being called 'weird' because we are all normal, breathing human beings.

Brother- never listens, picks on me, laughs and points at me for being..well me. Talks rude about my friends in front me and it hurts because without them I be lost, I would more alone then I am already. He will never understand that, even if he older than me.  He only talks nice of me behind my back, he cares I know but it hurts still.

School:

Friends- They're ill or having their own big problems in their lives that I can't seem to do much for them. All I can do is give them a shoulder to lean on; however this only wants me to tighten my mouth close about my own, true deep feelings because they're more important to me, they're all I got to keep me going and I thank them all for that.

Stalker- My primary, BFF Lulu has what I will rudely call a 'Bitch'. She keeps betraying me, lying to me and I told her all she done to me, every drop of fact and she keep ignoring, trying to get back into my life when I don't need to be used as a rag doll. I was broken when my greatest of friends in the world (who I met in secondary school)  moved to Germany, she, beside my Nan, got me inside out.  Lulu left me to cry alone, you could say she help start that habit of mine to cry alone.

Love life- I had this crush on this guy, and I had asked him out one more time. Yet he asked to be friends and I agreed, yet whenever we meet he won't talk to me. He refuses to talk to me, not even reply on a piece of paper and it starting to get on my nerves. I keep wanting to pick up that phone and dial him to ask why, but I don't have that strength. It upsetting for me because this guy is the first I have had a huge crush in my whole small 15 years. He made my heart pound, I couldn't but not think of him when I stopped. But now I had to let go because I can't grip something when everything else crumbling around me. So put it simple, my love life sucks. Horrible.

Coursework, homework, mock exams, exams- do I really need to explain? No? Good.  This is piling up for me being the last couple weeks at school, which makes it harder to keep up with.

People- People, I have come to know well keep coming in and out my life. They all seem to leave me behind, which hurts because once I seem stable again they all go and I find myself falling to the ground again. Alone.

Internet:

Fanfiction.net-(Conrad1998)- Now I bet some of you have been wondering why I had quitted from there, why I had left that website and disappeared. I...I just couldn't take it anymore, I keep gripping onto the past, wanting it to be my reality again , talking to people who when I did left my heart stinging in pain. I can't even log in with my heart feeling ripped to pieces and finding it hard to breath. I feel that isn't me, that girl who had too many happiness in her life to live and joys to have where now I'm tired, stressed and slightly depressed and I can't handle it anymore. I felt sorry for people who told me 'Conrad! Don't go! Not now!' but I just can't, it hurts terrible. I'm not strong enough, and I doubt I will in a very long time.

Qoutev- when this event up here happen, I had started to write my own stories, something to distract me from my life, from anime anything off the past but as you noticed I came back to hetalia because that has given me so much happiness in my life I couldn't just throw it away now. Pewdiepie, through I will always be a fan off because I came a fan of his on a summer holiday when I felt lonely and forgotten, when my friend left me a while back by then. He brighten my world and I thank him for it.

And that everything, I hope you can understand, thank you and I'm ever so sorry. I'm hurt, tired and all I can do is keep going, keep smiling that all I know.

Keep, Keep,

Keep smiling, keep smiling, keep smiling,

Keep shouting, keep shouting,

Because no one will noticed that your weaken in your crowd

That you've gone and fallen down,

Down to the ground.

 

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Hi I'm ZeroTheUnknow

About me: I'm known as a 'crazy' or 'good werid' girl. I've always been odd, I've never been normal. I have three sides of me, one is loud, social, clumsy. two is shy. clumsy, scared, jumpy. three is pissed, annoyed, angry, and can't stand what I hear (this side it rarely seen anymore). I'm that girl who thinks make-up makes you fake and it burns like hell. I want to be able to stand up for others and be more confidnet with myself, I want to be able to not fear the future, I just want to be myself and nothing more, I want you to know me not someone who fakes to impress, I want to see the world before I settle down. I have many goals, yet I don't have much time to fdo them all. but I'll try!

I love writing, it away for me escape my reality of life. Poety is something I do rarely and when inspired just right. My main thing I love is Art however I know this and it is I have a long way to go with it to get better doing art by hand. I love anime and manga since it another to escape reality and I love anything that isn't too much connect to reality or give it that funny twist, anything fanasty/romatic I love!

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